love square

费城是又一个咄咄逼人的城市。
我想我太适应了wildwood的松懒氛围。

同小花在philadelphia消磨了一点时间。
由于预定的hostel 自身神奇的原因。阴差阳错的被安排住进downtown的公寓。价格依旧是60美金。还有莫名热情的hostel负责人专车接送。我想我一辈子还是该走几次运的。

费城的雨下得很汹涌。corey在电话那头告诉我wildwood依旧保持阴霾却干燥。
费城晚上8点所有可shopping的shop都关得相当干净。wildwood boardwalk上应该还是一如既往地灯火通明肥妞攒动。

明早准备早起去纽约。不知道能不能走之前看一眼love square.

在new york待个钟头估计就该启程回wildwood住最后一晚。我很是感伤。最后一晚终究还是要来了。I don't know how to deal with leaving. It is tough.


最终我还是没有看见love square, 这是后话。

Ich werde zurück kommen

It's gonna be over. 

My days in Wildwood is gonna end soon.

Leaving tomorrow morning, heading to Philadelphia, N.Y. and then to the west. 

I baked this blueberry cake or muffin or whatever. It tasted bitter. I forgot to add sugar but lots of coffee power. 

I cut this onion and it made me cry like hell, tears flushing down all the way to my fingers. 

Food that I am eating always reflects my life. Weirdly but truly. 

We tried Sky Coaster together yesterday, we refers to Nicola, me and Alexis. This crazy Irish girl  insisted to get the pictures for us tho' our faces can't really be seen in the photo. We signed behind it and it feels kinda bitter whenever I see the picture.. 

Wildwood, N.J. 2008 Summer   July 21nd 8p.m

Goodbye My love city.

Goodbye my loves.

Please remember this, Ich zurück komme.

 

When people ask me....

一秒的安慰，是我想你的滋味。
微甜的滋味，给你力气面对。

做了午餐，西兰花炒培根，蟹肉炒蛋同朝天椒。大米无缘无故消失，勉强弄了几张饼，吃了俩手卷。

life in US is too easy, i even have time for cooking, even baked a cake. Oh boy!
Fortunately, after tons of cheeses, bacons and beef, i still weight 110 Pounds. fit, I am pleased.

Penny asked me, when are you coming back?

Uncle Bob asked me, do you wanna work for me next year next year? Forget about Morey's Piers, i pay better.

Even Felipe had a deal with me. If you come back next year and I am still the manager, I will let you be the stock girl as you wish.

I asked myself, when will I come back?

Things change too fast. I am not sure about anything.

will the dream continue

距离离开的日子还有十天左右。我很惆怅。也很不知所措。

工作得越来越吃力，因为实在moreys的这些七零八乱的事情让我觉得是在浪费大把时间。

于是让manager每天早放工，周薪越来越少。也不大care.

有事情摆在面前无从下手。有时我不是很会解决问题的人。尤其当遇上从未有过的尴尬矛盾。

对于快要回去过去的生活我很兴奋也很抗拒，困扰和捆绑又要哄哄而来，熟悉的安逸也同时回来。

来美国是一个梦。It's just I don't know that, will the dream continue? 

My heart hurts right now. 'cause I don't know what I want.

Stories from the dream

The Internet in this house is down again. I am speechless.
I am listening to Queen, thinking about the dreams i had last night.
lately I've been dreaming about scripts, completed ones. Good ones.
I have main characters, stories. There was even a time, Jude Law was the actor.
the stories vary, sometimes about love, most of the time they're about murder.

Last night two person in my story had this conversation.

Are they gonna put me into jail ?

They might.

I should go back to my homeland.

I'm going with you. This is true.

What is true?

That I love you.

....


Don't leave.

I don't wanna leave.

Don't go, I don't want you to go back home.

I have no home.



My dreams sometimes appear touching.

Woke up, i freaked out.