19.9.08

Next Wave

Next Wave tonight. Break a leg, Lingyi.

Shaun's item appears powerful, that's what everybody says. I don't know. As part of the piece, I hope it is true. Besides that, I only pray that I could do a decent job for the coming two nights. Regardless whatever, I respect and appreciate the piece, that's all a dancer need I believe. 

This week is a bitch. I am buried with papers and rehearsals. Bruise issue never remain an issue compare to four sleepless night. I feel lucky that I survived, and also proud. 

M1 is another bitch. When I faxed them to change my phone plan they asked me to include the Free IDD call service, which I did. Later comes the hundred dollar bill, on which I could find neither the word FREE nor IDD. So I questioned the customer service guy, who told me that I should have registered through call or website. Oh well, somebody could have told me a month ago that it was pointless when you asked me to fax in this information. So whose fault is it?
One third of my Mid-Autumn Day performances pay went to M1, you are incredible, man.

I am glad that I am still glad. I am being super optimistic lately. One dancer friend said it was because of Shaun's harsh rehearsals. Hahahahahaha... When ppl blamed him for his bloody heavy rehearsals or his picky attitude, I only felt him n the harsh training hilarious. I mean people are just different, its gonna be boring if all were patient like sheep. His chore is brilliant, and that was the only reason for me to remain smiling even when he scolded me on my mistakes or non-mistakes for hundred times. Anyway, if by any chance that Shaun saw these words, my name is not Lingyi.

11.9.08

失眠

I couldn't sleep. Not because of anything but just couldn't fall asleep, which sucks.
I couldn't smoke. Not because of anything but just cigarettes suddenly make me wanna puke, which sucks even more. 

Thinking about canceling the appointment for blood donation tomorrow. I don't think such a body could offer any healthy blood. Plus I have a workshop to do. Fainting in front of a group of dancers would be the last thing in my agenda. 

Called Corey at 4 o'clock in the morning. At this kinda time I can call nobody else but him. The conversation lasted 20 minutes and I decided to hang up. 

5.9.08

creep

I am being extremely extreme, if you, or I know what am sayin'. 
Things are just not right. I'm not a stuffed animal, and neither are you. Any of you. 

The phone has become an organ of mine. Fuck it. I can't take my eyes off it and try to feel it whenever am awake. oh well, things just don't work that way. In fact it works in the opposite direction. The more you give a fuck, the more you get fucked up.

I am Okay, I am just a little bit screwed up. 

I got a mid-term paper in ten days. No matter it's Time Flies or else, I am glad. Too glad that i start doubting if I am still normal. 

Projects are slamming my face. I gotta do well. Stop creeping. 

4.9.08

The world is not enough


Lynn在下午一点左右敲我并没上锁的门。并且严肃地说到“room service“. 此时我一丝不挂地睡得头昏脑胀,并且做着非常诡异的梦。下得够呛。
于是穿上衣服开了门。于是人家递了一包dunhill过来。受宠若惊。最近烟运不断。

近来生活日益聚集。凡事离不开跳舞和学习。接到名叫gena,陌生又貌似熟悉的女人的电话。问我有没有空做5场show。中秋节,扮嫦娥跳5分钟的solo。pay较可观。
哭笑不得。嫦娥?! oh well, for money's sake.

I would give anything in the world to be by your side.
我心里笑了一下,there's nothing in the world you can give。

写了张卡片给landy祝她将到的生日快乐。我们常说要一起逃跑去个异国他乡。
其实什么地方住久了都是一样的地皮一块。于是我很想那么漂泊一下。谁知道被捆地异常结实。

the world is not enough
but it is such a perfect place to start, my love
and if you are strong enough
together we can take the world apart, my love.