Please

我很痛苦。
我憎恨如此这般的生活。

i'm terrified. Give me a little time. Give me a little space.



Above were written down last night, when I thought i was in a deep down situation and being completely helpless. But now, right now, I' m laughing at myself, 'cause I think I am in a deeper down situation.

What about tomorrow?

Perhaps I really don't know what love is, what life is, just as you said, or whomever said.

I need some certain things in my life, something that i deserve for.
And what's the thing that i want, i could never tell.

I seriously hope that i could stay in China for a bit longer. Even if it's just a place for me to hide.