When i was in Taipei Airport

And when I was blue.

i thought it would be bad.
It is horrible, way much worse than a simple "bad".

it's not like that i'd been there for a while and then left. Not that simple.
It's like that i'd never really left that place, or more specifically, it's like I had never left him.

Yes, him, satellite, star, love.

And now I am lonely and homesick.

Can't breathe
can't talk
can't close my eyes because the tears would fall fast.

Homesick, lovesick.


Laugh at me. It sounds goofy and girly. And i am goofy and girly, just like how you always call me.

Goofball.

I am lonely, 'cause you are not here baby.

I sit in Taipei International airport. Been here for hours, and i still have few more to wait.
I call you every hour or two. your voice is the only thing that soft me up at this point, this moment.
Sitting in a boring terminal like this could have driven me nuts.

but it doesn't matter now. Everywhere else without you is the same - cold, lifeless, meaningless.

So it doesn't matter.

Sitting in a cafeteria for 9 hours drinking up my 6th cup of Americano.

it doesn't matter at all baby. 'cause you are not here by my side. Nothing makes me sadder.


It is weird. The way I am behaving, thinking. I wish I am able to explain it.

I'm not that kinda girl who sings " i've never loved nobody fully, always one foot on the ground".

I've been in n out of it.

BUT YOU.
you gave me this weird feeling, one that I've never had before. Like i've never existed in a certain way before you came into my world. i do not know how people call it.

Imprinting?

I dont know, I guess you are special.

Certainly you are so very special.


I love you. So much more that you know.


End

2:30pm at Taipei International Airport, Terminal One