PGS

12 Jan, 2010
Flight 937 from Haikou, China to Singapore

One month is over. I am by myself again - with no family, no man, and no cheap cigarettes with me.

I am experiencing a crisis, which could possibly be named the PGS - Pre graduation syndrome. The major symptoms are:

- Lack of objective, career-wise;
- Excessive emotional flow
- Insecurity
- irrational thoughts such as becoming a stewardess(This one might be personal).

First time in my life time I actually lost track of life itself - completely frustrated, totally unplanned, yet still trying to avoid thinking about it.

There are blueprints, in fact I‘ve got four of them. However, none of them is desirable because the final choice of any one will cause me hell lot of troubles and perhaps hell lot more of future regrets.

There is one psychological theory saying that, behaviors manipulate thoughts, thus people tend to change or form their thoughts in ways which better explain or support their behaviors (which isn't exactly a good thing ). Together with my past personal experience taken into consideration, I figured that no matter which option I picked from the four, I'd talked myself a way out by the end of the day even if there was a regret.

Now the problem is, which option am I gonna choose? Or, to make this even harder, which three am i gonna abandon?