The year of tiger

Song for today - Plane by Jason Mraz.



Lunar New Year falls on this Saturday, spring break. Could be a chance for me to get together with the family and celebrate, I just did not catch it. A friend invited me to join a small gathering on Chinese New Year Eve, glad that at least I've got somewhere to go ad someone to talk to on such a date.


Birthday celebrated at Cafe Delmar with the guys and Lady Alexis. I put on my new bebe top and got drunk. I definitely got the attention and appreciated the love from my friends, yet I was not sure if it was right for me. See, i actually felt guilty for going out, got wasted and missed my dance class the next day. I think I am pushing myself a little bit too hard here.

By the way, I did quit smoking, which is actually not too bad. The real depression is that lately I felt getting detached from some people, worse, not only one. I think there are holes somewhere in the communications, but I don't wanna talk about it 'cause apparently even talking does not change facts easily. And I am tired of making an effort over and over again 'till one day I lose the patience and confidence. Such as today.

The worst thing is, I am pretty sure that I am not wrong about what I feel. And I've tried reaching through you, but I don't have the faith to actually reach there. Not anymore. We are all self-conscious creatures after all. I totally get it.



P.S. Blizzard attacked Jersey. To those I care about, please be well.