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Song for Today: I'm Officially Missing You - Tamia


"Grandma said she was lonely. "

Bo told me so.

I almost bursted out a cry, realizing that it's been 2 months since the last time I called grandma.

She is 76 year old. Grandpa past away when I was ten, since then grandma has been all alone.
She refused to stay with any of her children for long term, the excuses were always that "she is used to live by herself","Her friends are all in the small town" "She doesn't like city life".... I know the real reason behind all these is that she doesn't wanna become the one extra person in a household who would somehow look awkward in the picture.

Altho' all of the children of her would love to have her staying with em, but she is stubborn enough to to keep her dignity.

And that is what I am worried about, also what I am so concern but could do nothing about.

I hate grandpa for his leaving. Not only because I love him so much, but also that he left one person, whose hand that was supposed to be held by him 'till the end of both their lives, alone in the world.

If life is short, I don't want her to feel alone in any part of it.
If life is fragile, I want her to be more fragile so she wouldn't try so hard to be tough.
If life is precious, I want her to know that she is the most precious person in the family, and in my life.