I spent 3 days building the furniture which i purchased from IKEA.
Now I officially live in this tiny little room which looks like one of those showrooms in IKEA.
So size does not matter no more. The point is, I, now, have a roof.
My ex boyfriend called me two days ago, asking me on the phone "Do you wanna talk to me?"
I don't know, I just think that if I call somebody on the phone, this question seems too dump to ask.
So no, I don't wanna talk to you, especially after such a chaos happened in the past 6 months, especially after you accused me, and still accusing me for some really bad stuff which I would not do to you or anyone even if I hated you as a alligator.
End of the story.
A note I wrote down in my "New York" notebook when I was traveling in China.
A MONTH OF THINKING
When I woke up in this huge King size bed in a whatever hotel in Haikou city, China, I thought about this man and our complex relationship, past tense.
A month of thinking cleared my head out. I was no longer angry or crazily pissed or whatever adj. you can think of to describe my feeling towards him one month ago.
Instead, I do start cherishing the good moments and I gave the whole thing the word "pity". That is how I feel now. It was a pity that "us" did not work out, at least not in the way that I was expecting.
So I am writing down all these words, to officially forgive you, and myself (I play so fair)for ruining our love together, and to officially move on with my life, forgetting about the unhappiness and the unnecessary dramas, or rather chaos.
I don't love you no more. But, I will remember I did and how that felt.
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