There was this family photo on Facebook of my ex boyfriend M, in which he was tagged together with his current girlfriend. I am actually happy for him, like seriously, not being sarcastic here. In those photos I also saw his youngest niece, who was a new born when I was still in his family photo. And now she is a two-year-old.
Time flies. And it felt kinda strange when I realized how long I was away from his life. Yi Shu the Hong Kong writer once wrote down a sentence - Don't be friends after you break up with the one you were once in love with, because at least one of you had been hurt; Don't be enemies neither, because you loved each other. Okay, pretty sure this was not what she said originally, but let's just get the point here and forget about the originality.
All I wanna say is that I think I'd agree with this theory.
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Last night I was struggling with my own emotions after two shots of Black Label, JW. Nothing related to my love life.
Some pictures were flashing in my brain - the arguments that I've had with people, friends or not, the bitchy talks I've done to people, bosses or not, the secrets which I should have kept with myself but I told others, necessarily or not.
I started re-considering the motivation behind all. Base on my own judgement, was I doing the right thing or was I actually being a bitch, or rather a immature hypocrite? I know it's getting a little bit confusing here. All I wanted to say was that, I was very upset to realize that I had been harsh on the others yet compromising to myself. One step back, who is not? Nevertheless, I wanna be a good person, or at least a person who makes sense. And, to find the balance of getting sufficient selfishness and rational respect to others, it's gonna be .... fun.
2 comments:
ur strong and smart for relizing the errors of ur ways before it wss to late :)
u should b proud so hold ur head up high with confidence
for u r a women :)
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