laughing with

Song for today: Laughing with - Regina Spektor


ICN is over. I'm disappointed. The reason is unclear, or I wouldn't wanna pick one.
Anyway, it is over. I did what I wanna do. I met some nice people. I'd say the whole while was fun. But I am never ever gonna do a show like this anymore. Ya right, like I have a chance.

I met Emily few days back, was telling her how I hadn't been smoking. She was proud of me, just like how I was proud of myself.
But the fact is that I bought another pack of dunhill fine cut. Altho' in two days I only had five and half cigarettes, somehow I realize that maybe I am not addicted to smoking, instead, I am addicted to buying new packs of 'em and enjoying the moment when I picked the first one out. And somehow, I can see cigarettes going out of my way. So judge me in whatever way you wanna. I know what is going on.


Something has been bothering me. I don't know what it is but it is definitely there.

Exhausted.

So i am gonna do what I do best. Smoke a cigarette and listen to some lovely songs. Go to bed. Dream about things on my schedule for tomorrow.